I wish I could say I’m in the holiday spirit, but really I’m not. Three years ago I had a family under one roof, a boyfriend that I was madly in love with and healthy grandparents. Fast forward to now and my parents are divorced, my ex left me for someone else and my Papou is gone with my Yaiyai and Nono well on their way to meet him. I’m in a rut and I need this new year to bring me out of it. I need to make a big move and get my life going again. I know what I have to do and where I have to go… Still digging for the strength for it all. I think I’m faking it pretty well…

For now, I just need to get through the holidays and hold it together for my family’s sake…

Happy-fucking-Holidays.